The Ordinary Journal

It's really hard to describe some things that bring happiness for me. But here I am, trying to tell five things that have already made me really happy for the last 21 years of my life. 1. Words For me, sometimes words means more than just words, they mean so much. A paragraph or even a short sentence can make my heart flutter, not only in cheesy ways, but also in any ways. I appreciate how people text me with their chosen words, especially when they put some ways to compliment me through words. Sometimes, their words make me cry for happiness. I remember my beloved friend sent me an entire paragraph of compliment through e-mail to celebrate my birthday, I couldn’t stop staring at that e-mail for at least 5 minutes until started to cry. Another experience was a chat from my lecturer saying that he noticed me in an event held by an organization in my faculty. He said that he really wished that I could follow the journey of a great alumnus who became the event’s guest. Just a short ch...

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